January 2011
1 post
“And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me, everyday I will remind...”
– Bruno Mars - Count On Me
July 2009
1 post
actions speak louder than words
A simple phrase can live with someone for years with an action behind it. Promises to me are sacred. They’re something i won’t do to get myself out of a tight spot. I try my absolute hardest to make sure that when i do give a promise, i can actually fulfill it. I’m often referred to as: blunt or truthful. I’d rather be called a female dog than a liar. However, for there...
April 2009
1 post
Here comes the rain...
I try to give myself a good piece of advice to always think positive and not to lose focus on the most important things that I need to achieve in my life. But sometimes, I go onto this weird emotional time in my life where I allow unnecessary things interfere with what is real versus what is not. Sometimes I feel the world around me tries to block certain things out of my life that would...
March 2009
4 posts
Watch
bad habit
Relationships are work. We all know this. You have to work with each other to find a middle ground and compromise. (Which is essentially my MAIN problem) Dealing with each other’s pasts can also become hard work. Different backgrounds tend to make people view love and relationships differently.
It is difficult to deal with insecurities and jealousies. If your significant other finds out...
"Growing up"
Sometimes, I really don’t want to grow up. I’m kind of scared of it.. let me explain how I personally define being grown-up. Being an adult has nothing to do with putting your stuffed animals away, usage of ball pits, riding a golden motorcycle, running “the gauntlet”, or increasing your age number, because I know a lot of adults who act extremely childish. Being an adult...
Surrender.
“When it comes to love, you need not fall but rather surrender, surrender to the idea that you must love yourself before you can love another. You must absolutely trust yourself before you can absolutely trust another and most importantly you must accept your flaws before you can accept the flaws of another.“ i’m starting to realize the importance of relationships. friendships, flings,...
September 2008
2 posts
The greatest tragedy is not your death
But a life without reason, that your life had no purpose
i have so much that i want to say, but i never seem to express myself effectively… words with substance never surface past all my nervous stammers and babbling. i stumbled across an old journal today, atleast 3 years ago, and i realized- my shortcommings haven’t changed. all of my irrational fears and my social anxieties...
nothings perfect
but that’s what makes everything perfect all at once. I always question myself. I know what I am but when people tell me otherwise, I begin to get lost in myself. I don’t believe it’s right for people to put others down because they are upset with their own mistakes and flaw. Because someone else messes up, they scream at someone they care about. I’m not innocent of this,...
August 2008
3 posts
someone's somebody.
I have everything anyone could ever want or need in life. I have a family, I have a circle of friends, that is always there to “party” with, or to just chill with. I have a “best friend” who is there pretty much 90% of the time. I have several boys… who are ”here” as well.
The fact of the matter is: I dont want to be chased by random guys. I have given up...
life is hard, but so is everything.
Thank you God,
for this great opportunity to share with you exactly how I feel.. I’m not well, and I think that I should tell you, that I think I got tha raw end of the deal. Don’t get me wrong, because It’s not like I blame you.. But sometimes things get crazy on their own. I’m ashamed of the way I point my finger because, deep down I have reaped what I have sown. Life...
grandma gargles
i missss you )=
July 2008
10 posts
lbs.
last year i was so fucking little. sucks to get fat and not even realize it lol decided NO MORE SALSA. )= misosadd. welp running 3 miles a night is going to suck not to mention the situps & push ups.. and extra work outs with brent. bah. life as i know it is OVERRR.
onnn a good note. since my sister (aka) my bestfriend is in IWAQ it’s good to have a girl at work be so much like her i...
blah.
i got my detailed phone bill from at&t .. 102 pages.. necessary ? i think not!
went to the ‘girl doctor’ I waited for fucking an hour in the waiting room naked, and was really trying to be a bitch to her when she came in the room FINALLY but she’s just so nice & goofy I couldn’t . BAH i closed with the dumbest bitch today ]= talk about being pisssed ive been...
iloveyou.
You say hello, inside I’m screaming I love you You say goodnight, in my mind I’m sleeping next to you You drive away from my car crash of a heart And I don’t know Cause you gave me the best mixtape I have And even all the bad songs ain’t so bad I just wish there was so much more than that About me and you You talk to him, and it burns me like the sun You talk to...
free fallin'
maybe it never will be. no matter how much patience… no matter how much time… no matter how much gratitude… no matter how much devotion… no matter how much commitment… no matter how much hope… no matter how much it means… to her… maybe it just doesn’t mean anything at all. maybe… she’ll never be… enough for you. &...
hearts were made just to fail
The simple truth is hearts were made just to fail No matter how we try If I don’t see you again I only hope someday you understand Time turns good love to goodbye I should have told you It’s all it would ever be
i’d rather spend everyday alone, then spend everyday trying to defend myself or the life i lead.
long road to ruin.
what’s the rush-we’ll be here for a very long time.
why the wait? you never know when you’ll be gone.
com-pli-cated.
I’m so scared that the way that I feel, is written all over my face. When you walk into the room, I wanna find a hiding place. We used to laugh, we used to hug, the way that old friends do. But now, a smile and a touch of your hand, just makes me come unglued. Such a contridiction, do I lie or tell the truth? Is it fact or fiction.. the way I feel for you.
So complicated, I’m so...
more than friends
finally realize how much i love Tim.
he’s the greatest.
want to have children with him.
:)